I can't say for sure, but I'm going to blame my moods as of late on PMS. It's easier on everyone if thats what I do.
It's not even 8am and already I'm irritated. Maybe thats from an email I got. I'm going to assume so.
I started a list last night, 100 things to do before I die. I got to number 21 before I gave up the list and just started reading all the shit I'd written in my diary over the last year and a half.
That made me pretty bitchy too. Though it always does. And made me question why I do all the stuff that I do when I do it. And I think I realized that I'm usually a pretty good judge of character and I usually don't put someone in my life that I don't think can handle who I am... so the key players in my life drama are usually ones that can stand up to my actions. Some are surprising though, and you might not think they would.
I have no reason to hate my life, but for today, I think thats the stance I'm going to take. Can't say why, but today I feel the need to escape again. Turn around and not look back. I know it's no good to continue running away from things that scare me or annoy me or whatever. But we all know how much Alanna loves confrontation. Probably worse with myself than with other people.
Yeah, I'm probably not even making sense anymore. Brilliant. Work's gonna suck today. I can feel it.
I think I need a hug.
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