Choose Your Own Adventure

Remember the Choose Your Own Adventure novels that used to be around in the 90s? I remember reading them when I was maybe 10 or so, maybe younger. I never really either loved or hated them..... not as a whole. I loved the fact that I could have different options, but I hated when I picked a shitty one and the book ended on a crap note.

Thus, I started reading them backwards, more or less. I'd read the first little bit, but then I'd get bored and read the endings first. And then I'd pick my favourite and see if I could get there by reading the book and choosing the right path.

I've realized lately that I've kinda been doing this in my life lately. Or, for the last while anyway. There are events in my life that will happen, and I don't know quite what the outcome will be. Well, thats not true. I have 2 options. But for those 2 options, there are also routes to get there. I've been trying to work backwards and figure out how to get to the option I want... or at least what paths will take me to the different choices.

I had a talk with Bailey last night about the choices that I am facing, and when I said what I thought I should do, she made a good point that changed how I thought. So I feel like I keep ending back up at square one.

The problem is, I know what my outcomes can be. I just don't know which one I want. And I want to be able to go down one path and if I don't like it I can turn back the page and try the second option with no consequence. Unfortunately I don't know if this is quite possible.

Wish me luck, the adventure begins...