I'm not a mean person. Well, not in the sense that I purposely try to hurt people. I'm honest, yes, and sometimes maybe this hurts people, but I don't set out to hurt anyone's feelings.
I realized today that someone I thought was my friend, a close one at that, has removed me from both his MSN list and his Facebook (and we all know that if it's on facebook, it MUST be real).
Now, I'm still deciding why this bothers me. I think it's because I don't like to be disliked. If we had had a fight or something I would more understand the avoiding communication. But I haven't done anything at all to purposely make him cut off contact.
I'm fairly certain it's got to do with my recent happiness, my life falling back into place. But I refuse to feel bad for being happy. If he had been paying attention, none of this would have come as a surprise. I never hid how I felt about the person I'm with now. In fact, I was accused of having unresolved exboyfriend issues by the person who's cut me out. Is it my fault I've resolved them!?
I don't do rejection well. That I know. I think I'm a pretty nice person, and I have a hard time grasping why someone wouldn't like me. (I'm also modest, for all those following along).. and so this is hard for me.
Maybe he'll come around, I don't know. Or at least man-up and bring it up with me instead of playing the avoidance card. Cuz I know that avoiding things doesn't make it go away.
If you're reading this, friend, I'm sorry if I've rubbed this all in your face, that was far from my intention.
1 comment:
Something similar happened to me a few months ago, also through Facebook. Long story short, we're not allowed to be friends on Facebook because of someone else. I pesonally thought it was immature since this 'thing' happened like four years ago and at the time really didn't mean all that much. I've kept my dignity and I don't let it bother me. You're loaded with dignity so I think you'll be okay!
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